I don’t believe that laughing has always been the best medicine because I know sometimes a cry can cure what a laugh can’t.
reblogged from someone who knows the feeling as well as I do!
Feelings
I used to write everything It was my release and even though I know no one is reading this I think I need to get into it again because I have lost that way to get my emotions out when I can’t talk to anyone!
I am so happy it’s killing me I’m just waiting for it to blow up in my face which I know it will I’m waiting for the but at the end of this good thing I’m so afraid because I know what I am doin is wrong but I can’t help it I can’t stand not doing it because every part of me wants this wants her wants it all but she is confused an has a person and is taken an so much more it’s killing me because I want to just tell her to pick me that I will make her happy an it’s not just the sex it wasn’t that that attracts me that drew me in and made me fall for we! She is everything I ever wanted but more so much more I never thought I was lucky or good enough for someone like her but fuck what must I do to get her what must I out her three? I just want her to be happy I just want what she deserves an if it’s not me so be it but fuck where is my happiness where is my great fairytale ending? Yes I know that doesn’t happen but fuck come on? I know I have done this to myself an fighting my depression and I have friends and I can talk to them but at the same time I can’t and the one person I want to talk to I can’t! Fuck and then work is killing me and everyone needs me to e there rock and I want to be but it’s just all becoming so much…
I do feel better now I just needed to write
